lapis

what
is this new low that
the self has gracefully reached at

where
adjusting has paid the price that used to be
paid by holding tightly on to
one another

when
has this unbridled restlessness of the spirit 
like a dark unwieldy northern winter
entered

which
manifestations of assurance
will this heart forever miss
forever tie-dying itself
a new shade
of prussian blue

as brittle
as lapis
but as deep.