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Only in a story

Only in fairy tales are there kids who
love their parents back without knowing about
the indifferent apathetic universe.

Only in lore are there kids who are grateful -
who are satisfied knowing-
that there are people who take charge of their life
and who care about them and feed them
and make troubles their own
Before going into the space of empty thought
and loss of purpose.

Only in a story is there a kid
who understands the value
of what he has not yet lost.

You can start a story about a man
who was happy about his job and his family
and about the little joys of life

You can start a story about a woman
whose family is everything for her
and who was sacrificial and truthful
and joyous and giving.

In reality, such a lady is in denial.
In reality, she is pretentious.
In reality, such a man is not curious
In reality, such a man is dull.
Question-less, flat.

Happiness in a tale is the lie
that must keep the possibility of real happiness alive.
Truths that we say automatically imply the great density
of the opposite as being equally as possible.

Don't give me those stories about happy, responsible people.
What it implies is too dark for me to live with.

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