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sub liminal

for all of that which is sub-liminal
under the margins
waiting to snap but hasn't already
the pressure under the bubble
the steam under the whistle
the clot under the rupture

we must suffer under the margins,
the allocated scale for reparation
starts when you gain 50 points,
and not 49,
and so for 49 - you must suffer

you are sub-liminal to be helped
and must help yourself,
the world is divided
most often
into two (2).
and not more.

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