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face cream

they will get you, the skincare people

convince you that this face is worth preserving
that it is anything, and that wrinkles and
lines are not worth
the passage of
time

they will catch you failing
at faking your age
catch you napping in indifference

as if scars are not evidence

they will get you to submit
to erasure
and have a clean canvas
put colours back where they are
meant to be
draw bigger eyes

as if scars weren't evidence
of events
as if history didn't need
material memories

they will get you to plump up
your wrinkly skin
and hate yourself
gradually

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