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matchsticks

i want to show you how tiny flecks of snow 

that have now started to land, very slowly,  

melt very fast - tell you

what i learnt about the three types of snowflakes. 

the ranges of impermanence

the types of melt,

in northern winters.


the frost on white-bearded autumn leaves,

that you told me were all 

dead explicitly 

in your language

how knuckles get chafed 

by just being exposed in this temperature


i want to tell you where i’ve been and what was exciting

and who i’ve met

not in a formalized communicative transaction

but in pedestrian and boring passing speech 

where the importance of 

each nugget of communication

is not like blooming flowers

but indifferent, and stable

like grass


i want to tell you the lines that 

gave me pause, and read them to you

many times over and over again

as if just your hearing them,

would make them doubly meaningful


i want to detail the contours of your life

that i only know against the light of time

or is it the darkness

examine 

the broken parts of your memories

placing them on cotton sheet gently

and eventually on a glass slide


and also to be able to explain sadness

that isn’t a segue into intimacy

or it is now explicitly so

but i know we are trying to prop

a building up on matchsticks

loading concrete on tiny stubs of

softwood

barely millimetres thick

and flammable

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